Cerita Kita~aku&kau

apa itu ketenangan...?

tidak mahu terikat dgn mana-mana definisi
yg mungkin terlalu sempit, atau terlalu umum
miko masih mencari-cari, apa itu ketenangan...

“Renung ke alam semula jadi, dan anda akan faham segala-galanya lebih baik.”
ini Albert Enstein yg cakap..

jadi, apa makna ketenangan yg sebenarnya...?
mungkin suasana yg sunyi dan kemas itu adalah ketenangan..
tapi betul kah?

jika dilihat dari sudut yg lain pulak..
ketenangan tu bermaksud apabila jiwanya merasa aman..
tidak kacau-bilau..hatinya tidak kosong..jiwanya suci.


sudah..

bnyk lagi yg miko kena belajar ni..
terima kasih kpd org yg selalu bg idea untuk difikirkan...
terima kasih...terima kasih!

another question that bothering me..
is it fair for others
if only one side happened to know them...
but he or she did not ever know any single things about the other sides..

im not talking about famous artist, or any public figure..ok.

only an ordinary person like me...like you..like them...
maybe i know you, and i'm afraid to say hi!..
so i just let you passed by...
it is fair.....
if im the only one who reads your story and you didn't read mine.
it is fair.....
for me to talk about you and you didn't know anything about what i'm talking about you.
it is fair...
for me to be the only who answering your questions all the time and you won't answer mine.
it is fair...
for me to be the one who always lead the conversation and you just follow the flow....
it is fair????
bak kata nabil: lu pikir la sendiri!

before i lose my control, i better stop.
i'm going to finish my assignment~
till we meet again .....

suma individu mesti ada something yg benci sgt..
yg xboleh terima 100%..xleh kompromi langsung..
ko kasi la 'hadiah' cam na pun..
aku xnak..xmo pun..xhingin langsung..

wah..without any proper intro
miko main masuk jer..belasah jer!
heh...ko sibuk per?baca diam2 sudey!

meh sini miko nk citer benda2 yg miko xleh tolerate..
tapi memandangkan miko ni sgt flexible..
so..xder la perkataan "benci gila".."damn,i hate u!"
tapi kadang2 tu lepas gak la..
segala kata nista bercampur baur ngan maki hamun..segala macam..
mana ada org yg 100% baik+suci+putih hati...kan akhir zaman ni!


back to d topic..

miko xtau org lain pikir camna..
tapi nk tulis pikiran n pendapat miko pasal video ni...
amik kat you tube...



hehe..agak2 apa akan jadi kalo makcik2 surirumah asyik main fesbok ajer???
agak2 berasap x dapur kat umah..
rasanya kalau makcik2 surirumah main besa2 ja..ok kot.
bukan tahap addicted, xper la kan..
apa makcik2 surirumah xder hak ke nk main fesbok?

tapi malu wooo..
kalo anak sendiri g citer kat org macam ni..
aduh..seriyesli...miko malu!

ps: nasib ar,my mom xminat suma ni!hehe

sejak akhir2 ni
slalu terfikir akan persoalan di atas ni.
entah la..kalau betul wujud..

kalau betul wujud,
kewujudan aku ni diterima kah?
adakah kewujudan aku disedari,
adakah kewujudan aku hanya sekadar meramaikan umat manusia..
atau hanya aku yg sedar tentang kewujudan aku..

sedih ar..kalau org cakap, ko mmg ada kat sini dari tadi ker?
argh...dah la aku jenis diam ja..
baru nk kenal dunia..xkenal betul lagi..
dah rasa xbest camni..macam mana aku nk hidup..

bencinya! aku xkuat nk ngadap suma ni..
lepas ni..jgn harap i'll be nice to you!
geram btoi...ni bukan fasa percubaan lagi!
ni betul2 berlaku! and its really hurt me!
again..and again!

after this, aku akan defend diri aku!
xsalahkan nk jaga diri sendiri dari dilukakan lagi..?

selama ni tgk besa2 jer..
xterdetik pun di hati.
tapi kali ni lain pula jadinya.
tiba2 impulse jadi laju semacam jer

betul la kata pepatah
xkenal maka xcinta
susah betul bila asyik teringat-ingat nih..
nak wat keja pun susah skit..
dah mula dgr suara plak...

serius..mmg susah nk kontrol diri
kenapa la sekejap sgt waktu bersamamu..
part paling best,
bila kamu sgt alert bila namaku disebut..
perasan betul si miko nih!

nah,inilah gerangannya yg berjaya mencuri 'hati' miko


kamu yg mencuri hatiku!

ONE
just because i don't exposing myself in public occasionally,
that doesn't meant that i don't speak much,

just don't judge me with your shallow~unintentional thinking
i can't tolerate that kind of thinking~

TWO
sometimes your words will make me look so bad
in front of the others.....
owh...just hate you so much.

who are you in my life?
we are not relate to each other...just don't step into my life.
live well or hell...i choose my own life.

THREE
people tend to judge others by the first impression
it happens often to me...
it just that i don't want to bother myself thinking about those people,
but..... if these kind of people,
are going to harm me and people whom i care,
that is it.

i don't want to start any 'war'...
just peace....please don't do this to me!

Papadom....
dah lama miko rancang nk g tengok kamu
tapi mengapa halangan dan rintangan
datang menduga....
kelas full hari sabtu...oh..

sampai hati....macam mana ni?
banyak pulak assignment kena hantar...
kalau miko pilih kamu...banyaknya yg akan ter"korban"
kalau miko lepaskan kamu..merana jiwaku..

aduhai~
nk g tengok wayang pun susah...
afdlin shauki..macam mana ni?

tiba2 minggu ni bnyk keja datang..
ntah dari mana datangnya keja2 ni..
malas nk fikir dalam2..
nant lagi serabut dibuatnya!

just wishing that i could manage all of them nicely~

I have a right to my anger,

and I dont want anybody telling me I shouldn't be,

that it's not nice to be,

and that something's wrong with me because I get angry.